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reporting in

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 23:34:31 GMT

What's up?
Baby, my computers slow. It like can't even keep up with my typing, harsh hey? maybe i just type fast.
Nah, it's slow.
There really is no need for me to explain everything i've done since August 15th, so i'll just skip the Mr. fancy pants introductory...
Cept for i want to briefly explain something. OK ready listen up cuz im gonna go school girl gossip style.

Actually no.

But i just wanted to say, everybody who was at that party with the hot tub and the DJ... Was that not the most kicken party you've been to since grade school? : D nah it wasn't but it was pretty good!!!
And no one reads this so i don't expect any replys!!

But i just wanted to say to everyone out there.
I love ya. Straight up.
PCE B'tch's!!!

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 20:06:06 GMT

Alright. Hey.
So umm I'm just chillin again on a beautiful summer day... Just writing another post to see what's up in the livejournal user world. Sooooo... What's up?
What are people's plans for this year?

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:45:21 GMT

When you find a Spider or a bug in your house do you kill it? set it free? or leave it be.
That Is the question.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 07:44:25 GMT

Alright This is a double post to add on to my previous Post Just becuase i feel like i have fans now. so im trying to impress them.

I wanted to say thanks by the way to jocelyn for having super cool eurotrip pictures on her Livejournal, and a super cool livejournal, which i read, and it was super cool, i dont know how to post links otherwise i would, maybe someone can tell me how in the comments section? K please, love ya. Okay.

Ummm I definatly have to say thanks to ben next, hes been there for me throuhg so many times, good and bad, hard and not so hard, lots of laughs. Ben this is to you buddy. You've always been there for me, and ill always be there for you. : )

Thanks to scott for saing "I!" your amazingly funny and intelligent of a person i think. and ill always be there for you.

and thanks to Mary for saying "Kiahhhh!!! add me" or something. ill always be there for you, haha.

Thanks to of course bayley and amber, and everyone. omg. Can you like feel the tiredness spreading through this message??

Okay Anyways,
I wanted to discuss horoscopes with anybody who wants to discuss them....
I was having a really intelligent discussion a couple hours ago with a couple peoples mom's, and then the discussion of horoscopes came up, I was wondering What All my observers positions are on them, and how accurate you believe the actual science of horoscopes can be...

THis is basically my position on them:
Though i do not know very much about the actual science of horoscoping, I believe that There are Many possibilities when it comes to energy and many possibilities when it comes to how the stars may effect us, and our small little individual position's according to the stars...
I mean Even the Human race here on earth including animals and lifeforms of all kinds seem very small compared to the vast possibilities of the universe. i dont even like to think about it too much its scary how big it is.... its just like my brain is this little miniscule device and wow how could i even begin to comprehend everything around me...
So like the possiblity that people can predict whats going to happen ahead of time according to energy flows and positions of things in the universe makes sense. i mean its definatly a possibility and many people im sure believe in horoscopes strongly...
Im not just talking about the small and sillier versions of horoscopes in dating mags newspapers and the fortunes in your fortune cookies... im talking about the actual science of horoscoping... Is it accurate?

For instance will there be trouble on monday?
Or is my home life really in a chaotic sort of fashion at the moment?
I dunno. Yeah i mean sure, i had a fight with my mom the other day cuz some guy phoned me about hooking up free cable and internet from shaw and i did it on my own and she flipped out and was like yelling at me and stuff. but i mean i get into certain conflicts with her all the time. Was the horoscope really right?

Or was that just a fluke. Or was it a coincedence. What about deja Vous does that Tie in with this sort of thing at all? i mean were talking about reading the future here.... Reading the future...

Also there have been many stories about people believing in things so strongly that they come true...
This is The main part of my position on horoscopes....
Like Especially when it comes to the human body... There was this one story about this Man who Had some Disease ( this is the shortened version of the story Cuz im tired...) and he was supposed to inevitably die and then there was this test drug that nobody was sure if it was gonna work and he said he wanted it and they gave it to him and he lived for like way longer and then apparently it didnt work once it went through all the testing and it was printed in the papers and stuff and the man read about it and then all of a sudden he got really sick again and almost died until this doctor like faked him out and told him that there was this new drug that really worked and it was like the same drug and he gave it to him and he got better again and blah blah blah. sorry im so tired i cant finish this story properly...

But you get the picture right?

I mean sometimes if you believe something is a certain way you will just look for certain evidence to back it up and it will remain true in your eyes... ;)

Like if you believe your brother is stupid you will look for evidence to back it up and he will remain stupid in your eyes...

(Paradigms: 7 habits of highly effective teens)

So If you believe a horoscope enough, is it simply that if It tells you:

"You are going to have a bad day on Monday."

or less blunt

"This is your month and your FILLED with RADIANT ENERGY and brilliance, you will go out and shine your light on the world!!"

:That you look for evidence to back up those statements and they remain true to you. and you say
" WOW! My horoscope!! It Actually works!! oMg!!"

BAM that is a question standing in the face of horoscopes if you ask me!!!

I dunno what do you guys think on the matter?
Feel free to post huge dramatic posts regarding your opinion, i will actually read them and respond to any of them.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 07:11:18 GMT

OMFG im so freakin pumped, 6 "I's!!!!" minus a few exclamation marks. thats so cool!!

That means like a small amount of people are reading my journal, which means, i dont know what it means, im too tired.

Anyways, im just gonna post the happenings ive run across on my bumbling adventures.

Kiah's Bumbling Adventures with the kids:

Yeah That was witty and you know it haha. lmao omg. this is so fun.

Okay, so alright, Ready, go!

Yes well once upon a time, there was a boy... This boy was just an ordinary boy, an EXTRA-ordinary boy in fact. His name was Kiah!!

One day, On August the 4th 2005, kiah woke up to find wow, my bed is comfortable!! wow what an excellent day it was in the hood. So kiah got up and had a shower to avoid feeling uncomfortable....
And guess what he found.... After his shower he felt CLean and COmfortable. Wow What an Excellent start to a beautiful Summers day in the beggining of August.
Next Kiah decided he wanted to figure out what he was doing! so he talked on msn! and he even felt extraoridnarily creative and wrote a song and played the piano for a little bit!!
What a wonderful day. On msn he chatted with his good friends! Jen, and Joanna, and Holly, and Jorrie!
He arranged to go hang out with Holly and Joanna at Joannas house, and parted with his good friends; Jen, and Jorrie on msn, then he got a bus, packed some fruit, blah blah blah, jammed at joannas with ulysses and Joanna, who didnt really even play becuase i dont know she didnt want to. but she did a bit. and then we like made dinner and ate and giggled all day and talked and blah blah blah, merk_80 was there, joannas cat is super wise. OKAY thats my day. it was super fun. Sorry if you are unsatisfied with having read all that. LoL!
What can you do, you already read it all.

LOOK DOWN HERE!!!!! OMG

LOOK DOWN HERE!!!!

OMG

LOOK DOWN HERE!!!

LoL.

Okay so who read all this? if you did, thank you.

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 22:56:03 GMT

Alright, OK guys, There Are some things I need to confess about this journal...
Alot of the most interesting parts about my life arn't in it for one, i mean obviously im not gonna talk about stuff like masterbating publically. I mean Duhh you just don't do that. haha

2. I cant believe i dissed my own mom two journals back. That was just mean and uncalled for.

3. Before the second entry is alot of entries i probably posted when i was like ripped or drunk. lmao.
So if you want to read something on a more intellectual level and a less stoned and drunk level. then just read my new entries becuase they will probably be a little more me and a little less stoned and drunk.

4. Thanks to everyone who has written in my journal. I've never thanked you guys, so Thank you.

5. I'll post in this journal if i actually know some people still want me to post in it, so If you want me to keep posting in my livejournal say "I!!!!" Otherwise i might just post in my private journal instead, just to save myself from wasting my time publically. LoL

Oh yeah, and a special thanks to Bayley And AMBER who are especially sweet for reading my last entry. Thanks guy's! Really.
I'm gonna post in both of your journals right now k! bye!

HERES MY SUMMER POST YO

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 19:31:58 GMT

Baby, it would take way to long to explain.

Post me a msg if this journal is still alive, if it isnt, ill just cry.

Amber <3

meh ill post like a sentence to explain a bit of my past experiences....

i cant believe how immaturely bad of an idea drugs and alcohol can be sometimes. But if theres anything i think drugs and alc did for me it would be enlightening my point of view a little and expanding my perspective of life wider. it can really help you to notice simple things that ar eright in front of you all along, the only thing is often people get confused and dont realise they can see the world in a same and even much better way, just opening your eyes your ears and being high on life....
Have you ever listened to music when your stoned and you hear so much you didnt hear when you were sober? well try actually listening to music when your sober. like the same way as you do when your stoned. then youll realise you can pick up the same sensations from it. they are all there, you just may not listen carefully all the time. same with vision... like you know how everything looks super trippy when your on acid and is all transparent and moving and crazy and you see your world ina totally different light. drop the psychotics that it cuases you becuase luckily you wont experience those in real life but just check out the greeness of the grass and the redness of th eleaves on the trees and the blueness of the sky with the bright white fluffy clouds, many of the things you see every day are much more special and stand out much more then you would ever even notice if you take them as average experiences of your mundane life.... just look at the sky, look at the trees, the grass, the beauty of different sounds, the exquisitness of different tastes, the sensation of different touches, all stored in your cerebral cortex, they are often taken too automatically, take a few more seconds to really feel the colors and then you may find you dont even need drugs to be happy.
It wasnt even drugs that helped me realise any of this. it was reading. a much better activity then drugs anyways.

:)
anyways leave one.
Peace

Just Chattin.

Tue, 24 May 2005 19:47:25 GMT

Hey,

To Everyone I love:

I dunno why i did that lol...

i guess its so you can read this over here

Or over here....
Or over here!

This was supposed to be different but the HTML straightened it out i think, oh well.
anyways its Dylans birthday everyone (ben) say happy birthday to him!!!
im so tired that this is all i could think of to write.... i started out wanting to write a poem lol...
if i do it is for someone very special, my mom. lol wtf no shes sucha bitch sometimes. heh jk.

This livejournal thing is so crazy. I feel wierd writing in a public journal, it's like im harriet the spy, or trapped in bridged jones' diary....

If i was gonna post something of any particular interest; i probably wouldn't even post it in here.
LoL *post it*; that is the 'live journal' 'internet posting lingo' for all you people that don't know, or
dissagree with having internet for their KIDS, haha. yeah, thats right. MOM! haha

I pushed a shopping cart that was like 9 blocks away from a grocery store back to the grocery store just to be nice last night.

I'll respond if u post something, and try to post something in your livejournals journals too (scott, ben, amber, Carla),
Peace.

Peace not War.

Kiah!

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 22:00:09 GMT

i like ducks trucks muck shucks im bored.
my kat likes to sit in front of the keyboard. i dont really like her too tho.
omg i want to do somethin cooler then skip school, so im gonna go to school.
PEACE!

christmas is the season to be jolly.

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 08:45:49 GMT

drank alcohol with kortney. this is kortney.
we like to drink at the mall. with crazy asians

*wishes he knew how to post a pic*

My House PartY.

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 09:37:05 GMT

we breakdanced and we freestyled
and we drank and smoked weed.

saturday night BaBy.

= ) = )

I ran to the bus stop lol i wore someone elses jacket cuz i was cold.
and i ran back home. in 35 minutes. my mom got home at like 12:15 and she didnt have a clue.

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 09:23:48 GMT

Motha Fucka Aint Ready...

I DOn'T KNOW WhaT To SAY WHATS UP NOW.

drunk omfg omggghgGg

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 01:13:35 GMT

im too stoned and drunk to make a real message so just bear with my spellin ok!
SO I WANT TO GO FOR A CAR RIDE WITH MY FRIENDS.!! BUT I DONT KNOW WHO :D:D umm ok so i skipped soccer practise today and i think im going to go on a fast cuz i read it on erowid.com and it sounds really cool. and i dunno what else to say. im really stoned. and im really drunk. and umm i dunno what else. i basically quit my job today. but i think it was a good thing. cuz ill get it back when i have my social security number

and umm i need to stop drinking so much and smoking so much and getting my cat baked. kk im out bye!

:) im so stoned and drunk. i love you guys. live long.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 01:04:12 GMT

I love BranDy she is so hot.

The Ancient Art of Fasting

by

Terri J. Andrews

Throughout the centuries fasting, or abstaining from food and/or drink, has been a way to cleanse the body, open the mind and free the spirit. It’s therapeutic values are one of the oldest known to man. Dependable, safe and effective, fasting was endorsed by innovative medical greats such as Hippocrates and Galen - and even today, alternative healers consider it one of the best ways to heal the body and de-stress the mind.

Native American Indians knew of such benefits and would incorporate fasting into many sacred ceremonies, often times as an offering to the Great Spirit, the Creator of all things. Such ceremonies would be conducted at various times of the year, during certain phases of a persons life or randomly, when the community or individual deemed it necessary. In many tribes, fasting was an vital part of marriage rituals, rites of puberty passages or prior to a Vision Quest. By cleansing the mind and the body, the individual was free to experience powerful dreams or visions that were interrupted as omens or messages from the Great Spirit.

Fasting was and is still considered to be "powerful medicine" - meaning it can bring about healing properties, a sense of personal power and individual strength. It allows the participant to connect with their "humanness", unfolding their own potentials and life meanings.

According to modern claims, fasting benefits include:

* loss of excess weight and water

* flushing the body of toxins while cleansing the digestive system

* gain energy

* allows the body time to rest, recover and rebuild the immune system

* clears the mind

The Vision Quest

A Vision Quest is a time when an individual becomes more aware of their body, their dreams and their own sense of self. It is a sacred ritual, a personal test, that requires patience, endurance, and a strong will. The goal of the Quest is to purify the body of negative thoughts, substances and feelings. When completed, the individual is left feeling energetic, alert and healthy. The Natives used this practice as a way to connect to their supreme being - to be open to the messages of the spiritual deities.

Your Own Journey

It is possible to incorporate the ancient rituals of the Native Vision Quest within a modern fasting program by following similar ceremonial practices and techniques. Here is a basic plan which consolidates the two. This quest can be sustained for one day, but can be extend as long as ten.

Before you begin:

* Consult with your doctor.

* Purchase the juices that you will need (any juice aside from tomato and orange juice), bottled water and lemon juice, and herbal teas (dandelion, golden root, nettle, echinacea, red clover, peppermint, chamomile, rose hips, alfalfa, and milk thistle are good choices. Some participants choose to mix 2 parts tea with one part cranberry juice.)

* Clear your schedule so you will not be disturbed.

* As the toxins move out of your body, you may experience side effects, including: headaches, cramping, cravings, fatigue, bad breath, hunger, frequent urination, minor mood swings, dizziness, skin eruptions, anxiety, diarrhea and nausea. Do not be alarmed. It means the detoxification is working.

* Reintroduce solid foods slowly back into your diet. Following the fast, start with soups, fruits and vegetables. Do not eat meat for three days.

Tips:

* Drink through-out the day, rotating the water (with lemon juice), the teas and the juice.

* Include 1 acidophilus 3 times a day; 1-2 tablespoons of psyllium seed twice a day; and 3 capsules of spirulina 3 times a day

The Quest

Morning:

Upon waking, slowly stretch for 15 minutes and breath deeply for 10.

Smudge yourself and your home by burning sage sticks or the leaves and allowing the smoldering smoke to purify your being.

Take a long bath

Drink!

Mid afternoon:

Take a walk through nature. Enjoy the day, the sun and the weather.

Find a place to rest and relax, while outside. Read, daydream or nap.

Connect with nature. Take a souvenir from your spot to remember the day.

Drink!

Evening:

Drink!

Massage your legs, your arms and your neck.

Relax with music, a good book or a comforting movie

Before retiring:

Drink!

Repeat the morning routine

Place your souvenir next to your bed and reflect upon the day.

Pray

Hey

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 09:19:40 GMT

alright ill count to three and snap be in bed. im fet up with not getting enough sleep. im going to throw my computer out the window some day and just sleep for the rest of my life. yeah it makes sense.
so i want to have fun this weekend. tommorow (tuesday) im going to school then hang with some buddies and smoke some weed. im thinking im gonna stop pretty soon guys. maybe like after i smoke this 8th im gonna buy then ill cut back big time. my mom thinks my boss might not pay me cuz hes paying me under the counter. man if he doesnt im gonna be a little ticked with him and have some words. i mean i know work is easy and all but i dont like being fucked with and thats the fuck with zone crossing i would say.
man its making me pissed. he said hed pay me today and now he wants a social security number when before he said it didnt really matter to him. wtf? i mean it makes sense that he might not wanna get in trouble with the law. but hes kinda taking his word back and shit and i dunno if im cool with that. i want/really want my hard earned time/money. im gonna hafta talk to him. this is what i think ima say....
so do you have a problem with paying me? if he says yeah. ill be like was it cuz i didnt do a good enough job? psshh if he says yes which ill just suppose the worst. ill be like well i still expect to get paid. and if he says im not paying you. (tempting to not take it to social services. which i really dont wanna do) ill be like well i really need the money. can u at least pay me some of it? and hopefully he'll give me some of it. and then ill just take it to social services accordingly... thats only if hes being a jackass. that might cuase some problems for me since i DID know he was paying me under the table. but whatever ima do it anyways.
soo besides the bad news. im tired.
gnight!

my life

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 13:22:42 GMT

alright this is what i decided.
My life is complete shit and i want to start over. from here on im gonna "upgrade my life"
maybe it had something to do with the ferrari i saw drive past me today. i cant tell. maybe it was cuz i realised im almost 18, this is the cross roads of my life. i might as well make a decision. do i want to fail or succeed. when things in life bring you down. you gotta bounce back up. thats what lifes about. smiles and crys ups and downs its a roller coaster. a good one. its fun. its adventerous and like a rollercoaster the bad parts are actually good. if a roller coaster doesnt scare the fuck outta u its not a good roller coaster. if you want to have a good life, do things that scare the fuck out of you. im not talking about jumping off of buildings tho some people choose that. im talking about simple decisions. take her, out take her out? take her out? go there? do that? what do you wanna do with you life, u know son?
what do I want to do with my life?
what the hell do i want to do with my life?
i mean i could fucking sit here and never make plans. but i realised my plans are right before my eyes and im in some kind of blind fold. i need to figure some things out. this is for anyone who cares to read.
Get down to Buisness.
Music.
Cars.
Girls.
Good times.
Work.
School.
Friends.
U know what im sayin.
there are certain things in life that i want. Heres my Christmas list.

Speakers.
Money?
WTf do i want?!!?!?
Continued christmas list...

too hard im going to bed

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 12:18:21 GMT

SOME PEOPLE ARE COOL SOME PEOPLE I DON't KNOW!
i Had SUCHA fun time at this cool gathering with a fire and shit. it was pretty tight
didnt really go as well as i had wanted it to. got so fucking stoned then the cops came, and dont really understand much of what happend after that. Fire + peeps is the way. i dont know why the cops got so pissed but it was gay, disspercing like that from sucha good party. "Partys Over Guys."
fuck that eh? well i dont like talking to cops when im baked so i left right away. everyone else did to and we rolled to - THE TOTEM POLE- some people seemed to wanna go in all different directions but my friend and i had a soccer game to attend. PEace out, love yall.
I was thinking 4000 new speaker system would be enough to DJ at partys eh? start some kinda buisness. that would be cool. but i dunno. who would wanna do it with me? ALAISTAR! :D hope u got home ok buddy.
i actually saved money and it was a wierd feeling to have 5 bucks and not spend it on weed. i think ill spend it tommorow but i dunno. maybe ill save it up. i gotta open up a bank account and put it in it.
i think mine closed cuz its so old. i wanna start workin somewhere else too. so who hung up on me on the cell today! wtf? that was wierd me and arron spent like 75cents trying to call u kyle! anyways. u were right about there being a ton of people. but the house party after didnt really work out after so whateva. props to who brought the music/ lit the fire. u guys are chill. props to who smoked me up. props to second slices pizza. props to soccer in 3 hours.im out peace.

HIHIHI!

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 09:11:07 GMT

OKay so i knowwwww i dont go to school very much. so hold on to your seats.
I WENT TO SCHOOL! OMG. i know.
i know....
shit.
that was hard.
so umm my day was cool, what can i say.
I like Kat, shesa cool kat. hung out with her for the first time today.
good times. Hung out with dlyan. good times good times. saw corey and wished her a happy birthday in person. good times good times. saw beths mom.
good times. teachers gave me food. sorry a teacher. im good with the grammer, good times. so basically it was all good times!
good times good times.....
good times...
ahhhhh good times.
so whos bored of me saying good times?!?!? ahhh good times, good times. good times. good times. good times good times. those were some good times.
How many times did i say good times? aww someone count for me! good times good times. gooood times.
those were some good times.
are you counting?
But shit if your counting. then how do u know! that when i said.......... "How many times did i say "goodtimes" " that i really meant only count up to there. how do you know tho if you only counted up to there, that i really meant count up till here? or count up till there? or just plain old count up to when i said count? shit confusing isnt it?
well thats not that point. stay with me.
ide like to say to ben that hes cool.

and all of u guys check out emo user (emo_overdrive) i dont know how to post links sorry.

HAHAHA did u actually read all this?!?!?
amber i love you and your webcam.

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 09:02:51 GMT

Subject : my crazy dream

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haha ok so i thought i would send you my dream before i forget it because i want to to unlock the secrets of my brain. haha. i thought this one was good because you were in it. lol. probably because i was like remember this dream for kiah before i went to bed. ok so i'm staying in this big fancy hotel that floats on water and has all these aquariums. you come visit me and we descide to go for pizza. i remember having to jump from the floaty hotel onto a dock and it was like this big gap and tht sounds somehow meaningful. haha then we go to the beach where i run into my friend danica and her sister. her sister descides to pierce my ears and i get a second hole and strechers. then i can't remember. lol. what does it all mean? be my psychiatrist.....is that even how you spell it???

xxoo
CLAIRE

OOOOk so

First of all i think that jumping over the gap meant your courageous and you arnt afraid to jump big gaps.... im sure you did it for a reason. probably becuase the "floaty hotel thing" was floating away is my guess, and you didnt want to stay on it. maybe the floaty hotel thing represents something in your life!! i dont know...

me being in your dream is a cool thing us getting pizza, cool thing.
i think that represents us. i think all the other stuff are just somewhat normal representations of what would happen to you in an average day in the dream world. what do you think?
love you claire xoxo
peace and love. ps how about that pizza?
when i get some money we'll buy some weed.
bye!!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 05:59:49 GMT

This is gonna be long and random...

Theres alot i could talk about.... for start icould tell youabout my day. but i dont think im going to do that.
Heres my day in point form....
-Got up Exhausted.
-Spent the day tired.
-Went to work tired.
-Listened to some tunes.
Held the fort.
Blazed with my man, Rizzo....
So soccer practise being cancelled was like the highlight of your day being cancelled (if you were me...)
I'm really actually upset about that!
I wanted to make up for losing with my team on sunday. I think they go a little overboard cancelling, I mean its just a little bit of water.

Nerves are something moms seem to get on... I wanna move out. too bad.

Exploration of life is a wonderful thing, thats one thing i never want to lose...
The Hunger for exploration of life.
They say its a true tradgidey the human being that does not stand to its full stature. The human being that never embraces life and truely takes it for a ride...
I Have always had a passion for belief that i am not that human being.

Theres so many simple little things in life! And i feel like im missing them all!!

Theres another saying that goes control your life or it will make decisions for you....

Your life is truely yours. Your decisions are truely you. that is all your life is about.
You and your decisions...
Which leads me thinking, a good decision maker has alot of influence on things.
A good decision maker is in control. good bad sadmad, a true decision maker controls all that.
If a good decision maker is sad thats becuase he or she DECIDED to be sad...
So what if someone else influences a good decision maker to be sad by punching them in the nuts.
Well okay. that was a pretty freaking gay decision by the pussyass fighter biatch that punched the decision maker in the nuts!!
No but really....
Go out there with your head up. I don't give a shit who you are, what your doing. Do it well. Live in the moment but plan the future. You know what im saying? Go out there with your hands spinning and your brain stable.

Center your life on what you believe in. Center your life on what your purpose is. Don't center your life on people around you, cuz it can then come crashing down on you placed in someone else's hands.
Trust me.
Good friends important... i mean no stress to that.
They actually mean more then any word can describe and thats why u gotta be careful with em.
You are the only onewho can truely accomplish your mission though, be it sittin on the couch,
or changing the world.

Note to self* Your incharge!

Find some songs that inspire you!

stay cool. stay young.

One thing i discovered in life,Lucid dreaming.
How many average hours of sleep per day do you get in your life. 8 or 10?
Well there is this new growing hobbie in town, its called..... LucidDreaming---**
and its the art of making this sleep thing a whole lot funner then just wasting time with your eyes closed.
Heres how it works. Ever made a concsiouss decision while dreaming???
Try figuring out how to control your dreams to the extent of being completely aware your dream is a dream.
Being lucid is living a life while your sleeping. Doing what you want in your dreams. Taking them for a true ride. Controling the dreamscape. Controlling your subconsiouss mind. It is not only an art and hobby,
its a science and a scientific study.
A good lucid dreamer is not a common thing. becuase it takes some effort to become good at it but what do you have to loose.
Hey u only get 100 years to live or less and its known that people spend a third of it sleepin.
Awaken to your second life.

Dreams

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 11:59:43 GMT

K so im actually not going to bed yet cuz im cool and i like to stay up till 4am on school days. i just wanna rant some more.
O K , S O , Lets think about dreams.
Do you believe that dreams are the door to our subconsciouss mind, and the things we think about during the day that we are not even totally awear of?
I mean our minds are pretty well built. they do more then just think consciously, which is what im doing right now in the process of writing this page. and what your doing right now while your reading this.
what if the people that could make decisions while in their dreams were really more in control of their lives. really more in control of their brains. Do you think that could be true? the people that can make choices in their dreams obviously have a little further reach of control over their bodies then those who cannot control their dreams, or cannot consciously choose what they dream about. dont you think?
i remember when i was little i could control my dreams amazingly and had vivid dreams where amazing things would happen. that was before i did acid 3 times and made my brain bleed. then intoxicated it with poisenus mushrooms 4 times then smoked weed for days on end and drank lots.
tho i know my brain still has the power to dream, i dunno if i would be able to control my dreams that well by just trying. i doubt i could.
i think heres some dreaming excercises i will try....

Try thinking about something really hard before bed that i wanna dream about.
Try making Decisions in my dreams.
Go to bed early, and get really good sleep.
Write down my dreams.

Here goes ill let u know how how it goes later on.

Tuesday, November 09th, Just another day But a Schoolin one.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 11:41:40 GMT

OK So im going to school from 12 till 7 tommorow i think. if i can stand it off. I wanna fisih my science 10 so im on science 11. so im on science 12. im soo close. yet so lamely behind. but you know what.
FUCK. one step at a time?
Sometimes i get kinda sad about school. it all started back in grade 9.
spent a whole 6 months or so doing correspondance corses.
U know the kind you do fully at home. its like homeschooling without a teacher. i pretty much just smoked pot with my old friend gordon all the time and we skipped every day, who remembers lansdowne.
After being like 3 courses behind i started to fall more and more behind from the lack of motivation. (self paced school) its like a flex program. similar to the one at reynolds..
Now im like 6 courses behind. whollllley shit. i have like 10 to finish.
it will definatly take till 2006 to graduate grade 12. dammn.
everyone i know mostly are graduating in 2005. this sucks. im sooo behind.
whos got plans for after grading?
i was thinking about building a backbone, a plan, a plan that i could work around, a plan that would keep me on track.
i can never make a good plan tho, my mind changes to much to look at some plan.
okay well this is what im thinking..

PLAN:
Science 10 is done by the end of november. Rocket through math 11. and socials 10. by christmas.... they should be well done.
finish grade 11 after that. GRAD by 2006!!
Make my Resume tommorow. start sending it out. Get a second job.
Heres some places i was thinking. The Speghetti Fact,Moxies,Thrifties,Rickys,Starbucks.
I hear you can make really good tips working at a hotel doing room service calls and stuff cuz u get tips.
ide like to try to make 600 a month instead of 360. and SAVE $5000$ by 2006!

i was thinking today taking some journalism courses, and i want to take psycology, and philosophy courses too for sure. maybe Camosun?

i dont think ide wanna go to school again till 2007. ide rather spend a year working and traveling and relaxing and chilling with friends. 2006-2007 will be a cool cool year. i wanna get really excited for it. i mean i dont wanna lose touch with everyone. i like my friends so so much. i could spend a year partying while im still young before startin a career.
heres some places i wouldnt mind visiting, Asia, Egypt, San Fran *Again*, Winnepeg, Ontario and ottawa, Hawaii, Toronto.
I wanna do a cross canada trip and a Cross United states trip on a 600cc bike. I could do that in between 2006-2008 im sure.
By 2008 ide be lets see 22. wow that would be tight.
i wanna be outta school completely by the time im 24-25 tho i think.
seems like a good age to be on your own, and i want to start my own buisness while im still young.
i think thats how to make real money.

so okay i planned all the way out till 2008. might as well plan some more stuff. might as well plan my whole life.

lol not.

This is what i was thinking today when i was high on the bus after my buddy blazing me at work and then my other buddy blazing me at work on my way to soccer practise. Did The NDP raise the price of bus passes to 35 bucks on the green partys behalf of discouraging fuel consuming vehicles? or was it something completely on their own behalf?
heres the facts. The Green Party said, if they were in power, they would discourage global warming, by charging the high pollution vehicles more, and encourage low fuel consuming vehicles by charging them less, (the kind that dont pollute). so i mean i heard that a good winning party, would realise that alot of people actually wanted that, and decide to honor the other party, by adjusting and doing what the PEOPLE want.
So if the NDP decided to do that then maybe i wouldnt know and maybe the bus pass thing really was part of a new plan, cuz busses obviously lug alot of people around and produce quiete alot more carbon dioxide then a normal vehicle. But then thinking about that busses actually are a really good idea. i bet if everybody took busses their would be half the amount of pollution. i mean they would have to transform all the cars and trucks on the earth into busses and shoot the remains out to cyber space but they could do it. so if busses are actually natures friend and offer a less polluted society then wouldnt making the prices high actually be a bad idea?
i dunno. busses are a good system. im sure the goverment racks more then 100 dollars a day for sure from each bus. probably more like 500 or 700 or something pretty crazy maybe much more. so the governments constantly making money from busses. and its constantly making money from pennys that add up in every day taxes. and huge income subtakes from peopls money. they must make alot of money. if u think about it, wouldnt it be good to be an ctive part of our government. personally i have no idea what they are doing im just guessing.
if we leave it up to someone else they will make our countrys decisions for us and we will never even know cuz our lifes are so small.
i should do a research project on the NDP. i think i will. i wonder what kinda stuff ide dig up.
I think pual martin is a respectable guy.
but after that whole president bush thing i know at one point i believed bush was a good guy. im not saying anyones as dumb as bush, im just sayin i wanna know if our leader is cool.
i wanna start an anti war campaign that would be absoluetly wicked.
im sooo tired tho so im gonna go to bed. ttyl.
PS Im in a band now!!!
Ulysses See you on thursday.

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 08:00:16 GMT

K so this is what i decided.
i dont go for girls im gay.
i know im sorry.
lol jk, i want sex. just trying to be cool and talk in code form.
And yeah guys ima virgin. I've
decided im gonna boast it a bit when the occasion best represents itself and while im still one.
Think about it: u can only say it till u have sex otherwise your A LIAR. depressing i'snt it.
thats why im gonna be a virgin forever. i decided.
like britney.
shes so innocent!! i love her eyes.

Hmm my lifes so cool. Work soccer School sleep Work Soccer School Sleep Party
Party Soccer Party Sleep. Repeat cycle.
So anyone ever ran a pc cafe baked?
its pretty fun.
Anyone ever got a job getting tips?
thats what im gonna do.
MotorBike here i come.
Dean see u this friday.

KYLE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Just chilll...

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 05:05:40 GMT

Everyones so caught up in doing things... Sometimes you just gotta lay back and chill, you know what i mean.
Who likes to chillaz in baths with candles? Or Meditate, or Who likes to work out or read books and just chill at home one night in awhile. that means no homework no parties just doing nothin. I find it has sucha postive effect just to relax.
Thats what im doing.
Sacrificing a beautiful saturday night for a good cuase. :)

K so im crazy.
oh well.

Guys Tell me how that party goes at Claires.
i wanted to shout out to erik and alistair for being wicked. have a mad cool session/time at the party? :) kk

K so what happend yesturday. I went to vic high, SJD, then to joannas and chilled with joanna merk liam tristen and cody i think it was? i watched the girl next door twice more yesturday. it was cool. nobody came to SJD it was emo haha :) me and merky and joanna good times when stoned. Joanna thought our bowls were laced with weed. WTF?! lol i was like hmm no were not! :)
i dont like E. slash dont wanna do it ever. we wernt on E!! :)
anyways. fun times. thanks joanna, mMERKY.
slept at joannas.
woke up and went to the imax this morning with my mom. she got us free tickets by complaining somehow. i was to tired to care? almost fell straight asleep 3 times while downtown this morning. ate breaky at the museum with my mommy. sexxxx.
hot museum girls >>>>

ran into Alastair and Erik. they told me about this cool partay.
didnt go cuz i have a soccer game tommorow. have fun whoever goes.
Nina Aurora Kyle Alastair Erik Claire. Peeps.
Arron told me some tight underground rap that i should download. its tight.
guys download some masta ace. its good shit.
Teah HiHi.

BLEEEEEHHH!! : )

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 03:59:23 GMT

Cold Basement floor feet.
hi my names kiah. the past day and a half ive been permanintly cold.
is it just me?
it gets dark early and i feel like sleeping.
i love my friends and family. i love my cat - kitty.
i like to play soccer and run with the wind.
i like to bike and play rugby.
i like to rollerblade and take a natural likeing to extreme sports.
music is my soul.
im going to go rent movies! so
if you like dating leave your number.